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The Choices That We Make

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Over the course of our life times we are faced with choices.

Our life experiences shape the way that we view the world and in a way, they predetermine the choices that we make…unless something or someone intervenes to help reshape the way that we view the world.

In this manner, our relationships become as important, if not more important than the experiences that we’ve had.

Last night, I sat and had a conversation with my husband about a few things.   I realized, once again, that it is important to get wise counsel before making a choice, if I’m not sure what to do.  (And in many cases, even when I’m sure what to do)

You see, just because we view the world in a specific way doesn’t mean that it’s the way that the world should be viewed.  Just because we want to handle a situation a certain way, doesn’t mean that we should…

Sometimes…most of the times…no, all of the times…it is important for us to thoroughly consider the choices that we make.  How will our choices affect other people?  How will they affect us?

We have to take our time to make the proper, correct, right choice…the one that represents us…

I am thankful for my husband.  I am thankful for his wisdom.  I am thankful for our unity.

It is my hope that I would always be able to consider the various options before me and the effects of each choice that I make, wisely.

Have you ever realized that your choices should be thoroughly considered and in considering them, you changed your mind?  If so, what or who made you see this?  What would the outcome have been like if you made the other choice?  Please share…

Sentenced to Life

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Christ came to give us life
Christ came to give us life

This morning as I sat thinking.

I thought…

I asked God questions and I thought some more.

I meditated on the word of God that rose up in my heart and…

As clear as day, I could hear the Holy Spirit in my heart.

“I came that you may have life and life more abundantly…”

I wanted to lay my eyes upon those words because I felt that they had rejuvenated my soul.

Suddenly, I felt like I could make it through anything that life would throw my way.

Finally, I found it.  The scripture that would give me the strength to smile and be productive today.  These were the words that reminded me that the Lord cared for me, everyday of my life.

“The thief cometh not , but for to steal, and kill, and to destroy: I come that they might have life, and that they might have it more abundantly.” John 10:10

I know that the words said “they”, but this scripture became very personal to me.  I felt like the Holy Spirit was saying, “Makeda, I came that you might have life and have it more abundantly.”

With those words, the feelings of being cared for and loved emanated through out my being…

I must admit…there are times when I am really struggling with a thing…

In my heart, I am yearning for God to fix my issue, although, I may not even know what it is…

I long for Him to calm my soul and bring me to a place of rest…

I can feel Him calling me to that place, but often times, in order to embrace it, I must first be clear of what it is that He is actually saying to me.

I heard the Holy Spirit, but for a moment, my emotions got in the way.

It is as if I have to bring my soul to believe what it is that my spirit is perceiving from God.

That is why, I meditated.

The biblical word for meditate is to think and talk to yourself about a thing or to have a conversation with oneself.

This is what I did.

It was what I had to do.

I had t make sure that I got it.

I couldn’t spend my day feeling some sort of way that I could not even explain.

Now here I sit…knowing that God cares for me…today.

He said that He wants me to have life and to have it more abundantly…

With that I am strengthened…

 

Have you ever felt this way?

Have you ever need affirmation from God of His love and that He cared?  What did you do?  How did you feel?

Leave me a comment…

A Thought On Grief

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sign direction new life - old lifeWhen you lose someone, there is a part of you that seems to go with them.

They go on to into another aspect of existence and the rest of us are here on earth.  While here, we begin to wonder what happens after we pass.

For those of us who believe in Jesus and the words of the Bible, we believe that to be absent from this life is to be present with God (if saved) or to spend all eternity in hell.

These thoughts came to my mind and have been there for the past four weeks.

First, my grandmother died.  She was a beautiful woman that instilled great value in me.  One reason why I know that I am strong is because she taught me that I was.

I’m not ready to go into detail about my thoughts and feelings on her passing yet, but I miss her dearly.

After attending her funeral, the following week, my great grandmother passed away also.  She was a great woman of faith.  I remember her stillness, faithfulness, and heart of a saint.

With the passing of these two great women, I realized that they are my yesterday.  So much of what they were, I am.  The Bible says that we can inherit the faith of our grandmothers.  I believe that the same faith that was present within them is also within me.  I thank God for this.  For there are things that I know have only been gifts given to me from God, my faith is one of them.

I am now their tomorrow.  The legacy of these two women live on in me.

I will miss them both, but my way of grieving will be to celebrate their lives.

Four weeks of transition…a passing and a funeral…a passing and a funeral.  A lifetime of change.  I will continue to pray and ask God to help me celebrate them…because I don’t want to mourn.

A Moment In Time

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Time

There are times in life when things seem to go so fast that you can’t keep up.

There are times when it seems like life has taken you by surprise and there isn’t anything to do but trust the One that knows it all.

I know this feeling all too well.  There have been times in my life where I could barely comprehend the shifting and changes that were taking place.  Yet, there have been other times when I believe that I know exactly what is going on.

Still this hasn’t been one of those times.

In the past four weeks, I’ve gotten news that my grandmother and great grandmother passed away.  The other two out of the four weeks, were filled with emotions and funerals.  In this time, I questioned God about my own life.

I wondered how long I would live and what He had purposed for me to do on every level that I could fathom.  I cried and laughed, knowing that life is but a breath.

I’ve looked at some of the choices in my life, as we all must at times, and realized that although I have made a few bad choices, I’ve also made a lot of good ones.

I’ve worried about my kids, my parents, my spouse, and my friends.  I wondered if, when it was all said and done, when my life was at its end, would He say that I had lived a life of abundance…that I honored Him.

I also had moments when I prayed for rest and peace as I realized some of my greatest fears and attempted to conquer them.

Most of all, I determined that I would be great and that no matter what I did, I would make sure that I believed.

I would trust in the Word of God and know Jesus had really paid the price for me.  I renewed my faith and assured myself that God is on my side.  (Psalm 103)

I reminded myself that God is not mad at me.  When I am tempted, I have not yet sinned, but have only been tempted and that’s ok.  I reminded myself that it is alright to have the struggles that all men and women tend to have in this life.  I gave myself permission to be weak and not to know it all.  I told myself that it was ok to fall down sometimes because that meant that I would learn how to get up and know what not to do.

This past few weeks of mourning has been filled with a new discovery of who these two wonderful women are and what the legacy is that they left to me.  I have the faith of my grandmothers (2 Timothy 1:5). This faith helps me to believe the word of God and to trust Him.

I know that no matter what, He is able to do so much more with my life than I could ever do on my own.  He will fill me to overflowing and when my story is over, I will look back and see his hand holding me the entire time.  Nothing that I could ever imagine is beyond Him (Ephesians 3:20).  This gives me great hope…and for the first time in my life, I am not afraid.  I am confident, knowing that there is no reason to fear or doubt because God is with me.

(I wrote this for a group that I”m apart of, but I wanted to preserve here on my blog as well.)

 

On My Mind

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It’s been a while since I last wrote a post for my blog.

There has been a whole lot going on.  To say the least, I’ve been extremely busy in every area of my life.

If I could put it into words, I think I would say that it feels like my life has been getting excavated.

I don’t really want to go into all that has happened within me right now, but I will say that it’s a lot.

It feels like God has looked at me and said, its time for somethings to change.  Now hearing this, you may or may not be thinking that something was wrong with me.  I will say yes and now.  On my Facebook profile for quite some time, I had a picture that said, “Under Construction.” There was a reason for that.  I don’t believe that I am a finished work, but I can tell that the Lord has been working on me.

I can’t wait to jump back into blogging and sharing my heart…

Do you ever feel like your life has been excavated?  Do you ever wonder what God will reveal to you that will blow your mind about you, your life, family, and life in general?  If so, leave a comment below.  I’d love to hear your thoughts on this.

To Feel Loved

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I have had my moments…
Moments of not feeling loved…
Moments of not feeling wanted…
Moments of feeling empty and void…
But all of that fades, when I hear and feel Him calling me…
He calls my name…
He reaches out from the throne room of heaven…to touch me
It’s not that I’m super important, but I’m super important to Him…
Important enough to make this real…
Real for me…
I don’t want an experience that only moves me in church
I want a relationship that fills my deepest needs
And as I type this I realize that I have what I want…Him
Moved to tears, my heart floods…
My years of rejection are removed with just a simple touch of His love
In my weakness, my void, my emptiness…
He fills me, loves me, and revives me…
Never have I known a love so great…
Never has my fear of rejection been so far from me…
He has arrested my heart and brought me to a place of freedom
No more will the chains that once filled my heart hold me captive to the pain that once restrained me.
In my heart I am finally free…
What an amazing love…

If you want this you can have it…draw near to him and be vulnerable. For it is in my weakest moments that I have found His strength to change, fill, love, and revive my heart…

He will hear your cry and come to your rescue…