Woman, Wife, Mother
I am very happy right now.
I just wanted to take a moment to say that I really love spending time with my husband and family.
My kids say the funniest things.
We laugh.
Have our ups and downs.
It was freezing outside, but we had a great night.
I honestly couldn’t ask for anything else as a mom and wife.
I am honored to be so blessed with my husband and children.
Yes, I am thankful and happy.
What are you thankful and happy about?
Just because I have a blog doesn’t mean that it’s ok for me to vent about my frustrations when I am upset. It doesn’t mean that I have to pretend that I’m ok, but I need to be wise. I need to act in a manner that would represent me. A way that I would be proud to stand before God and claim.
Why am I saying this?
Well, if you can’t already tell, I’m frustrated…and as much as I would love to explain why, I’m not going to. What I am going to discuss is how I’m going to handle my frustration.
Well, first of all. I’m taking the time to be alone. I’m sitting in the bathroom with the shower water running. Yes, I’ll be getting I. The shower soon, but I needed to do this first. I’m going to take a moment to myself.
Next I’m going to pray…selah…
Yup, I just stopped and prayed.
I’m doing my best not to complain about the situation because I read a a scripture this morning that discouraged arguing and complaining. It was Philippians 2:14, 15
14 Do everything without grumbling or arguing, 15 so that you may become blameless and pure, “children of God without fault in a warped and crooked generation.” Then you will shine among them like stars in the sky
As I meditate on this scripture, I’m going to take a shower. Maybe that will help me cool down a bit. I’m going to take care of myself. That always helps a bit when things are frustrating.
While in the shower, I prayed again. I quieted my soul and mind. I felt like God was saying that I didn’t need to worry because he would take care of the situation.
After getting out, I told myself that I had given the situation to God and was not going to go back and get it. I am now ok. I’m not worried, frustrated, or angry.
The key was trusting God. There are times when this is harder than others, but it’s apart of my foundation.
This is how I do it. I hope it helps someone.
This morning I sat down to write out my to do list. I decided to stop for a moment and think about the reason why.
“Why am I doing all of this?” I asked myself.
I don’t know if you are anything like me, but I have to have purpose in all that I do or else it becomes mundane and vain.
As I thought, I reached for one of my favorite books. “A Book of Prayer” by Stormie Omartian.
I prayed this guided prayer.
Lord give me a vision for my life. I put my identity in You and my destiny in Your hands. Show me if what I am doing now is what I am supposed to be doing. I want what You are building in my life to last for eternity. I know that all things work together for good to those who love You and are called according to Your purpose (Romans 8:28). I pray that You would show me clearly what the gifts and talents are that You have placed in me. Lead me in the way I should go as I grow in them. Enable me to use them according to Your will and for Your glory.
With purpose, I made my to-do list. With confidence, I carry out my tasks. I know that I am called to great things and being a mother and a wife are two of them.
Today was a rather stressful day. My back was hurting all day. I had relational issues with a friend. My kids had their moments, as all do.
Since there was so much going on, I has to sit down and rest. That wasn’t a short term thing. This is the type of rest means I’m not cooking. I’m ordering pizza. I am going to take a seat. After giving baths, I’ll be resting for the rest if the night.
In order to process my feelings and not snap on anyone, I am going to do what I know will help me. I’m going to pray and journal.
What do you do when you have a stressful day?
Today is Saturday…I’m sure you gathered that from the title, but here’s what that means.
It means that I don’t really want to do anything.
I wan to relax, rest, and do things at my leisure.
I want to knit and read. I want to search Ravelry, until I find a pattern that I simply cannot resist knitting.
I want to read the books that I have on my reading list until I fall asleep.
Some mayday that this is laziness, but I think it’s rest.
Now, although I want to do these things, I regret to inform you that I must first take care of my responsibilities. (Not necessarily in this order)
1. Take care of my children
2. Do some Landry
3. Clean up my house a bit
4. Work on my Psychology assignment
After I do some of these things, I want to…
1. Read my book for the book club “Chasing the Avatar” by Jovan Jones
2. Pick out a yarn for a knit along I am doing with a friend for thanksgiving
3. Finish knitting my daughters sweater
4. Possibly paint my toenails
Again, not necessarily in this order.
I look forward to having a great day filled with pleasantness and joy.
Yesterday, I wrote a post about the photo that I had seen online. I noticed that it would take a lot to continue to show love in a situation like the one portrayed in the photo.
After seeing the picture for a while and thinking on it, another perspective came to mind.
Do you know what its like to hug someone that seemingly doesn’t want you to hug them?
Alright, but do you know someone that wants a hug, but is afraid to let you love and hug them because of their past hurts?
as I thought about this tonight, I looked at the husband/father’s face.
As I looked at him, I wondered what was on his mind? What was bothering him so? What was he searching for? Did he want help but not know how to ask for it?
Why was his head down, his knees and shoulders slouched? How could he be helped? Did he want help? Does he want his wife to hug him? Does he understand how much he is loved…or can he only feel the rejection of times past.
I don’t have the answer to any of these problems, but I am still wondering.
