Let me start off by saying that I have not thought this post through. I am just writing because I feel like it. I have no idea where I’m going or how this will end. What I do know is that I feel this.
There are times in life when things just don’t make much sense. The events that occur are not pretty or pleasant, but they happen. When that time comes, we are faced with a serious decision…
How to handle it?
Seriously…I feel like tht question has slapped me in that face. How will I continue to be myself and love those I love without changing. Some people change in the midst of making this decision. They become harsh and mean. Some become arrogant and prideful. Others become so broken by the situation that their life is drastically affected, by the event and the decision.
I know that God loves us even when we are wrong. Yet, He does not turn a blind eye to our sin. He sees it for what it is and deals with us accordingly, but with mercy. This is how He loves us. Our prayers may be hindered, we may have to walk through some hard places, but the truth is that it could all be over quicker that a tinkle of an eye. That all depends on us. All God is waiting on to meet us, help us, and forgive us is repentance. If we decide that we are beyond repentance, He take a few steps back because the Bible says that sin effects people in steps. The ultimate step is death. He longsfor us to live abundant lives and to continually be connected to Him, but the choice is ours.
I said all that to say, God never changes and since God is love, I want to love they way that He loves. There is no magic formula as to how to love someone when it gets hard besides, love like He loves. With this knowledge, I have chosen to seek Him about my current situation. I have to understand how to love someone that has hurt me without destroying who they are or becoming someone else, myself. I want to imitate God and love the way He does. I just see His way as freeing to both the lover and the lovee.
I am almost positive that this will not be easy. I kinda think this is going to take a while. With the little inlking that I have, I pray for the dedication to remain loving throughout this whole process. I realize that this is natural…sometimes loving is hard to do